and it's not just about the cherry blossoms. or that the first things to bloom have already withered and fallen to the ground, under the weight of their own death. it's that the imbalance of winter, the sadness sometimes in my life, and often in those around me's lives...is ending.
i'm sure it is. if only by the power of my own conviction. the tides are turning.
-i did my presentation at the women's studies undergrad conference on saturday...paper title: "Women's music festivals and trans in/exclusion debates: what are we buying into?". and fuck, it was great. it was really fun to put together. it was scary but exciting to deliver. and it was well received. i'm so happy to have had the chance to do it. it made me want to be an academic/prof alloveragain...
-i also decided i want to work for the "Very Short Introduction" people. i could totally see myself writing 'very short introductions' to all sorts of things, taking the theory, and making it understandable. referring people to the actual literature, not actually writing it myself. and i'm kind of a 'very short introduction' kind of person. i'm reminded of last spring when my mom came to visit and was blown away by the fact that i had a short story for every item of clothing i own. so i started giving her 'short introductions' to my t-shirts. she stopped me at 8.
-i love steamed vegetables.
-i want to talk to hannah. i miss her.
-i want to send a package to caro in berlin, and have it actually arrive. i miss her too.
-i want elvis's baby to turn. TURN BABY, TURN!
-i want to have a sleepover with rachel. soon.
-i want to go to about ten different shows in april, and at the same time, i want to stop spending money so excessively.
-i want to take 'step 2' in the 'jackie transitions back to blonde' plan.
-i want to write a huge blog entry/letter/email to jeff, about why he is the best boyfriend i've ever had. i've reached the zen of jeff.
-i want people in jeff's life to stop dying. i'm afraid this means i think he really needs to quit his job.
-i'm pretty sure i'm just going to bite the bullet and get a job painting again for the summer, to get some cash before japan. assuming they take me (japan that is, not the painting).
-i want to hear back from the japan thing. this won't happen until the 2nd week of april at least.
-i want to transcribe my talk at the conference, because they asked me to publish it, if they end up putting a book together. who knew i'd sneak in a publication in my last 5 weeks of undergrad. nice, eh? hope that actually happens.
-i want to both hang out a lot with aoife, and also not too much that we drive each other crazy. we've been through so much, i just want to honour it until we take our leaves of each other...
-i want to clean my room
-i want to see my niece, whose 7th birthday is today (march 22nd)
-i want to get back to taking pictures. with all my cameras.
-i need to pick up my scanner from future flop, because apparantly it is "fixed"
-i want to write semi-interesting papers for the last 3 that i have coming up. i don't really see 'excellent work' coming out of this ass anymore for this degree...i can't believe that my last year was such a 'whatever' year. is it always like this?
-my nails are perfect right now
-my potato leek soup from last week is really boring tasting.
-i have some really rad friends. i got the best 'big gay bedroom'-themed present from horner on the weekend. that woman rocks my world.
-i want to go to bed.
ok. that's all for now folks. more 'actual writing' should follow with some regularity. i hope, anyway.
